Secretly
There exists a place
Somewhere between daydreams and memories
I can feel it
Hidden beneath your surface
My heart knows the way.
Quietly
I sneak inside
Close the door, shake the dust from my soul,
Tiptoe to the center
Curl up into the shape of your hurt
And lie with you
Finally
Warm, safe, and whole.
plagiarize me
copy my words
speak my longing
sing my heartbeat
convince me they are your own
leave me breathless
reeling
convinced you created it all
my heart is yours
your heart is mine
there is no pain here
only us
it’s divine, isn’t it?
this likeness
a dream unraveling
we are traveling
through each other
a love like no others have known
you seem restless
healing
convinced I’m the source of it all
my soul is yours
your soul is mine
there is no one day
only now
it’s transcendent, isn’t it?
this bliss
you can’t accept it
a sincere gift
too many wounds
so use my words, my movements
make them yours
until the day
you feel safe enough
to love me.
I tried everything I know. I don’t want to be a stalker so I’m not sending more messages. Today I felt you hate me.
You are repulsed by something in me. Something that isn’t even there.
I am confounded that you could think so little of me and confused by how much that hurts. You matter to me. No matter what.
Didn’t mean to hurt you, or to deny your feelings. I just wish you’d talk to me. Without that I’m floating out here. Lost.
Lost.
I can’t sleep again
You say things but you don’t mean them
Promises
Change the rules so I can’t follow
Break me up, break me in
What is this?
Maybe the truth is you don’t know
Trying to keep up but my head spins
Falling
Can you be steady, be stable, go slow?
You say things I hope you mean them
Promises
Is there anywhere we couldn’t go?
I can’t sleep again.
I’m so tired
Of giving attention
To hearts
Who look right past me
And being chased
By obsessives
Who can’t take a hint
Cruel. Ironic. Life.
i told you when we met
that eventually
you would have enough of me
i’m soft, i’m quiet,
i’m bold and fierce
i sway between telling you everything
and keeping my lips sealed
i’m tiny and helpless
i’m large and in charge
my spirit doesn’t know halfway
i use my whole heart
i told you in the beginning
enough would be too much
and now i sit here empty handed
alone, afraid, untouched
i’m light and boisterous,
giggly and free
i’m heavy and melancholy
woe is me
i’m brilliant and capable
i crave reassurance
generous and loving
needy and smothering
i told you when we met
that eventually
you would have enough of me
(i didn’t expect it to happen so fast.)
Give me your hand
Or if you will not
Trust me to lead you
Then lead me on and I will follow
Give me your heart
Or if you cannot
Trust me to love you
Then simply exist and I will admire
Give me your mind
Or if you dare not
Trust me to teach you
Then sit with me and let me learn
Give me your body
Or if you cannot
Trust me to heal you
Then lie with me and let us dream.
Tell me that it is so, and
I will try to believe you.
Tell me that it is
I will try to believe.
Tell me that.
I believe.
Tell me.
I will try
I will cry
I will know.
…
If you love me
(I think that you do)
I want you to tell the world.
Shout to the heavens, the stars, the moon
About your lovely, frustrating girl.
If I love you
(Possibly, I do)
I want to be your muse.
Inspiration, raison d’etre
The blood beneath your tattoos.
If you love me
(You say that you do)
You’ll write stories about me
About past lives, future adventures,
Our kingdom beyond the sea.
If I love you
(I say that I do)
I’ll show you my secret despair
For only you – who delight me so –
Could make me lay it bare.
If you love me
(I know that you do)
You’ll keep my heart with you.
It left my chest the day we met
In a moment of deja vu.
If I love you
(You know that I do)
Your heart is also mine.
I have always owned it, held it dear
Since the dawn of time.
moonlight dipped
honey eyes
candy lips
satin thighs
chocolate hair
velvet skin
freckle constellations
Cheshire grin
radiant goddess
white devil, red queen
dark silhouette
possessor of dreams
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